what was your exposure? I am also fighting the fear of HIV. Hang on there my friend.
There is an HIV forum on here, but frankly, almost nobody who posts on it has any chance of having gotten HIV. This is a reflection that you are not alone, there appears to be a lot of people who for different reasons are terrified of getting HIV or other STDs. You don't say how much this fear is affecting your life, and whether it's attached to one event or several or is just something you obsess about completely irrationally. You also don't say if other things also cause you to have great anxiety or if it's just HIV, in case it could be an isolated phobia which is a very different thing than a disorder that affects lots of things in your life. The first thing you can do yourself is learn what actually causes it and how to avoid it, and then do the things that minimizes the chances you will get it. Since HIV is a real thing you can get but only by doing a couple of things without protecting yourself it's something you can try to avoid, unlike being anxious about, say, driving, which is very hard to avoid in our society and is actually much more likely to be harmful to you than the chances of getting HIV if you take proper precautions. So it's something you can actually do something about without anyone's help, you just need to learn how one gets it and not do that. As to treating anxiety, all anxiety isn't the same but all chronic problems have a first step treatment, which is to see a psychologist who specializes in the treatment of anxiety if it's not something you have the discipline or knowledge or it's too out of control to fix yourself. If the problem proves to be too much for therapy, you will be referred to a psychiatrist for medication, but if it's just this one phobia you have that shouldn't be necessary but it is there if you need it. What won't happen is, it won't go away if you do nothing but obsess over it. You will have to do something about it, which again, is either you doing enough study to learn how you get it and how not to get it and/or seeing a professional who will help you move on.
Hello Junilesta_89, Depression from HIV is very real because you hear a lot of negative things surrounding the disease. I understand your situation on depression i have lived for 2 years with someone who had depression and i know the anxiety that can come from it. What i can advise is remain positive and HIV is just like any other disease. If you remain positive you will also see that you will do other thing better and with energy.